August 22, 2009

i’ve always followed my horoscope because most of the time its pretty dead on–at least for the past year. i also really follow astrology and believe in zodiac signs as a way to learn more about people and the universe. as a pisces, i am 100% that of what people say holds qualities of a pisces. recently, this was my horoscope one day and i look back on it every once in a while to help remind me that all the struggles i’ve gone through have been worth it, its made me into the person i am today and that i’m headed down the right path. so enjoy…

Like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis, you’ve taken some pretty tough circumstances and used them to grow. Now you’re developing into something lovely and fantastic beyond your wildest imaginings. During times like these, it’s good to remember how grateful you are — not only for the easy things in your life, but for the tough circumstances as well. They’ve shaped you into someone amazing.

never alone…

August 21, 2009

as most of you who are reading this blog know… i use song lyrics to express my feelings all the time.  everytime i hear a new song, somehow the lyrics always call out exactly as to what i’m thinking or feeling at that point of time in my life.   lately i’ve dealt with falling in love and learning to let go, at the same time i’ve dealt with surrendering my life completely and trusting that God has a marvelous plan for my life.  one thing that surprised me mostly about my last relationship was the fact that i wasn’t upset or hurt when it was all done with; i was for once calm, quiet, and content.  i had recently lifted up the relationship to God and was hoping that he would bless it as well as the other person involved. 

**side note. the past year i’ve daily prayed for specific family and friends, however when it comes to me i’ve prayed for the safety and well-being of my future husband (whoever and wherever he may be–only God knows at this point :)).  therefore, this past four months i’ve felt compelled (i dont know why but i did) to pray for this other person (who shall not be named). when things seemed to be heading south for the two of us i felt the need to pray for his future wife. i’ve prayed that they would both love each other unconditionally, with respect, and take care of each other everyday for the rest of their lives.  I’ve prayed that their marriage be blessed with lots of joy and happiness, and the kind of love I only wish to have with my husband.   I know that God has a wonderful plan for his life, at least thats all that I would wish for him.

now that i’ve rambled… back to where i was heading.  i heard this song one day when i was having a hard time letting go but knew that i had to because i felt like this wasn’t a relationship where God was leading  me.  i literally broke down in the car when never alone by lady antebellum came on my ipod.  they were not tears of sadness, rather tears of understanding and happiness. tears of feeling a burden being lifted off my shoulders.  i dont know if this is how other people feel when listening to this song, however i felt a huge sense of relief that i didn’t have to be mad that the relationship was over but that i could literally still love the other person and wish the best for his life all the while moving on with mine and trusting more in God. 

 so… let this song have a special meaning for you, whatever it may be:

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
Know in your belly
You’re never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You’re never alone

Chorus: Never alone
Never alone
I’ll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn’t goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you’re never alone

I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I’m not gonna promise that the cold winds won’t blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You’re never alone


May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You’re never alone


My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you’re never alone

Proverbs 3: 3-6:

3 let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. 4 then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. 5 trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

….i need to make God a vital part of everything i do; because as he guides me i will be working to accomplish his purpose.

the unknown…

August 15, 2009

i for one am the type of person that doesn’t like not knowing what lies ahead. i’ve always had school to look forward to, or work. the past three months i’ve been enjoying my summer by traveling and hanging out with friends and family, working out, and simply just doing nothing in particular; really this whole summer i’ve just been distracting myself while waiting for my orders to finally arrive. last week i finally received my orders in a way, i now know that i have to report to fort sam houston, san antonio, tx. on october 14. i’ll be there for my Nurse Officer Basic Leadership Course till mid december. that is the first part of my orders, however the “unknown” that is bothering me now is as to where i will be headed after OBLC. since i requested to be stationed in germany, italy, or hawaii… the unknown has gotten to me. i just want to know if i’m going to be overseas or if i’m going to be in the u.s. without this information its hard to figure out packing, car situation, phone situation, etc. i still feel like i can’t get anything done without this information. however i still keep hearing my orders are “in process”, a phrase i’ve come all to familiar with.

over the past few months i’ve recommitted myself to God and have put my trust in him daily. at times its hard to put all my trust in him and to give up total control of my life to him. i dont like not being in control, however i know that if i give up full control of my life then i am allowing God to use me in my full capacity to benefit his kingdom. i dont know what lies ahead of me, nor what God has planned for my life; however when the anxiety starts to form in the middle of my chest i’ve been encouraged by Jeremiah 29: 11-13:

11 “for i know the plans i have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. 13 you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

…. so here’s to trusting that God has a life filled with happiness and success waiting for me. most importantly, hopefully i can be a faithful servant in his kingdom doing whatever he has planned for my life 🙂

my bucket list

August 11, 2009

so last December I saw the movie Bucket List and decided I wanted to come up with my own.  since then, i’ve knocked some off my list as accomplished and am continually adding more.  i’ve added some pictures to go along with some of the accomplished tasks at hand 🙂
  1. Ice-skate on an icing rink (outside)
  2. Ride in a gondola in Venice, Italy
  3. See wild animals on an African Safari
  4. Send a message in a bottle
  5. Skydiving (January, 2009: San Diego)
  6. Fall deeply in love—helplessly and unconditionally
  7. Oktoberfest in Munich, Germany
  8. Learn to play the guitar
  9. Sleep in an igloo
  10.  Learn to salsa dance
  11.  Swim under a waterfall
  12.  Spend New Year’s Eve in Times Square
  13.  Be a mentor to a young kid   (Teen Pregnancy & Parenthood Community Nursing 2008)
  14.  Get passionate about a cause and spend time helping it, instead of just thinking about it.     (LLS Half Marathon, 2008)
  15.  Drive across America from coast to coast
  16.  Sleep under the stars
  17.  Spend Christmas on the beach drinking piña coladas
  18.  Accept myself for who I am    (2009 finally accomplished)
  19.  Drive down by the beach with the top down and music blaring
  20.  Scuba-dive off Australia’s Great Barrier Reef
  21.  Take a hot-air balloon ride
  22.  Visit Victoria Falls (Zambia & Zimbabwe)
  23.  Go Bungee-jumping
  24.  Visit the pyramids of Egypt
  25.  Experience the perfect kiss
  26.  Drink vino in Italy
  27.  Go to the top of the Statue of Liberty & Empire State Building   (June 9, 2009)
  28. Photobucket
  29.  Run a Marathon (half counts too )  (October 19, 2008 Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, San Francisco) 
  30.  Reflect on your greatest weakness and realize how it is your greatest strength
  31.  Go Skinny-dipping
  32.  Visit the concentration camps…and never forget it!
  33.  Look into your child’s eyes, see yourself, and smile
  34.  Visit the Stonehedges, United Kingdom
  35.  Drink beer in Ireland
  36.  Visit Iguazu Falls (Brazil & Argentina)
  37.  Have coffee and a croissant at a French café in Paris
  38.  Walk through Central Park  (June 8, 2009)
  39.  Set foot on all 7 continents: Asia, Africa, North America, South America, Antarctica, Europe and Australia
  40.  Visit a real blues bar in Chicago
  41.  Participate in a Carnival parade in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
  42.  See a bull-fight   (Spain, 2002)
  43.  Dance the tango in Argentina
  44.  Dance the flamenco in Spain  (2002)
  45.  Climb an active volcano
  46.  Go to a Manchester United Soccer game
  47.  Learn to play tennis
  48.  Learn to play piano
  49.  Go Kayaking  (Hawaii—out to the Mokalua Islands)
  50.  See a sunrise at the top of a mountain
  51.  Ride a mechanical bull
  52.  View Paris from the Eiffel Tower at sunset
  53.  Drive a race car
  54.  Go rock-climbing
  55.  Visit the Amazon rainforest
  56.  Visit St. Peter’s Basilica, the Vatican, Rome
  57.  Get to know your neighbors
  58.  Learn to drive stick    (2004 my Ford Focus)
  59.  Read the works of Shakespeare, Plato, Aristotle, Dickens, Thoreau, Rousseau, Conrad, Hemingway, Twain, Burroughs, Talmage, Tolstoi, Longfellow, Keats, Poe, Bacon, Whittier, and Emerson.
  60.  Gamble at Monte Carlo, Monaco
  61.  Write a love letter
  62.  Build a sand-castle
  63.  The Acropolis in Athens, Greece
  64.  Blow bubbles for a child to pop
  65.  Swim with dolphins
  66.  The Alhambra in Granada, Spain  (June 2002)
  67.  Kiss in the rain
  68. The Kremlin, Russia
  69.  Party it up in Las Vegas, Nevada 
  70.  Ride a camel in the desert
  71. Walk through a meadow, with no cares in the world
  72.  Berlin Wall, Germany
  73.  Walk through red-light district in Amsterdam, Holland
  74.  Visit the 7 Wonders of the World
    1. Machu Picchu, Peru
    2. The Colisseum, Rome
    3. Petra, Jordan
    4. Christ Redeemer, Brazil
    5. The Great Wall of China
    6. Chichen Itza, Mexico
    7. The Taj Mahal, India
  75.  Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, California    (October 19, 2008)
  76.  Mt. Rushmore
  77.  Visit Waikiki Beach, Oahu, Hawaii & Northshore  (June 2009)
  78.  Take up gourmet cooking
  79.  Make a difference in at least one person’s life
  80.  Volunteer at a homeless shelter
  81.  Learn to jump start a car, change a flat, & change the oil
  82.  Take a self-defense class
  83.  Spend the weekend at a 5-star spa
  84.  Find the love of my life
  85.  Visit Galapagos Islands
  86.  Find inner peace
  87.  Go to a college football game
  88.  Visit a nude beach    (Spain, 2002)
  89.  Watch turtles hatch and run for the ocean
  90.  Learn to forgive
  91.  Invite friends over for a dinner just because
  92.  Cherish the relationships I have with those who DO love me
  93.  Take up kickboxing
  94.  See a baseball game at Yankee Stadium   (June 8, 2009)
  95. Photobucket
  96.  Ride the Trans-Siberian Express
  97.  Visit Panama Canal
  98.  Volunteer for a month in a 3rd world country
  99.  Visit Costa Rica
  100.  Love life
  101.  Bar-hop down 6th street in Austin, Tx.
  102.  Enjoy God’s majestic creations
  103. Visit New Orleans & eat authentic Jambalaya
  104. Stay at the Ice Hotel in Sweden
  105. Stay in a bungalow over the water in Tahiti
  106. Learn to play poker
  107. Stay up all night just to watch the sunrise
  108. Be in a food fight
  109. Enjoy a candlelit bath
  110. Build a snowman
  111. Make homemade ice-cream from scratch
  112. Teach someone to read
  113. Climb Stairway to Heaven in Oahu, Hawaii  (June 2, 2009)Photobucket
  114. Have true authentic Pizza from New York
  115. Visit every state in the U.S.: Alabama, Alaska, Arizona, Arkansas, California, Colorado, Connecticut, Delaware, District of Columbia, Florida, Georgia, Hawaii, Idaho, Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Kansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Michigan, Minnesota, Mississippi, Missouri, Montana, Nebraska, Nevada, New Hampshire, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, North Carolina, North Dakota, Ohio, Oklahoma, Oregon, Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, South Carolina, South Dakota, Tennessee, Texas, Utah, Vermont, Virginia, Washington, West Virginia, Wisconsin, Wyoming
  116. Do camping the right way: sleeping under the stars, fishing, hiking, campfire (hot dogs, smores, and marshmellows 🙂 yummy)
  117. Swing from a tree into a creek
  118. Read the bible from cover to cover
  119. Buy a stranger a meal
  120. Grow my own vegetables from my own garden
  121. Watch the sunset while sitting on a porchswing, drinking iced tea.
  122. Go to Disneyland  (working counts right?)
  123. Visit Niagara Falls
  124. Walk on a beach by moonlight
  125. Make love somewhere you could get caught
  126. Buy my own home
  127. Go to a drive-in theater
  128. Fly in a helicopter
  129. Go to a rodeo in Texas
  130. Name a star
  131. Own a Ford Mustang
  132. Be in two places at once
  133. Build a tree fort with all the accessories
  134. Play cupid.
  135. Challenge someone to a duel using tubes of gift-wrap
  136. Build a Habitat for Humanity home
  137. Romp through Santa Ynez, California in wine country  (Kristi’s bachelorette party, 2009)
  138. Send my parents on their dream vacation
  139. Use my gifts to serve others
  140. Learn to play chess, then play in a park with a stranger
  141. Restore a classic car

just testing the waters

August 10, 2009

well i’m new at this… obviously.  i’m a huge introvert and i love to people watch, so this has led to a life of keeping alot of things in my head but not letting it out.  hopefully, this is one way that i can express what is going on in my mind and to give the world a little glimpse of it as well.

so… just testing the waters in whether i like this or not.  welcome to my journey and enjoy my thoughts 🙂