the unknown…

August 15, 2009

i for one am the type of person that doesn’t like not knowing what lies ahead. i’ve always had school to look forward to, or work. the past three months i’ve been enjoying my summer by traveling and hanging out with friends and family, working out, and simply just doing nothing in particular; really this whole summer i’ve just been distracting myself while waiting for my orders to finally arrive. last week i finally received my orders in a way, i now know that i have to report to fort sam houston, san antonio, tx. on october 14. i’ll be there for my Nurse Officer Basic Leadership Course till mid december. that is the first part of my orders, however the “unknown” that is bothering me now is as to where i will be headed after OBLC. since i requested to be stationed in germany, italy, or hawaii… the unknown has gotten to me. i just want to know if i’m going to be overseas or if i’m going to be in the u.s. without this information its hard to figure out packing, car situation, phone situation, etc. i still feel like i can’t get anything done without this information. however i still keep hearing my orders are “in process”, a phrase i’ve come all to familiar with.

over the past few months i’ve recommitted myself to God and have put my trust in him daily. at times its hard to put all my trust in him and to give up total control of my life to him. i dont like not being in control, however i know that if i give up full control of my life then i am allowing God to use me in my full capacity to benefit his kingdom. i dont know what lies ahead of me, nor what God has planned for my life; however when the anxiety starts to form in the middle of my chest i’ve been encouraged by Jeremiah 29: 11-13:

11 “for i know the plans i have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. 13 you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

…. so here’s to trusting that God has a life filled with happiness and success waiting for me. most importantly, hopefully i can be a faithful servant in his kingdom doing whatever he has planned for my life 🙂


One Response to “the unknown…”

  1. Lorinda said

    Praise the Lord….

    Love Mom

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