a letter of longing

February 2, 2010

To that someone who will never be replaced,

I sat beneath the star-spangled sky watching you. You’re laughing with your friends, cracking silly jokes with joy written all over your face. You’re happy indeed and indeed you’ve missed them. It’s been a long time since you have left. I missed your laughter, those eyes of yours that held all the beauty in the world and our moments, such memories filled with endless wonder. We could have died of happiness, or at least I could have.

Now you’re back. Truly my prayers have been answered, that those long cold nights of crying were not in vain. It’s sad though, how you forgot about me, how you ignored my presence, how I had to steal glimpses of you, how I sit here, here under this thick, moonless, black canvass craving for your attention.

I guess I have no more room in your heart. I guess all the roles in your little theater show have already been taken, that happiness is only a state of mind, a phony dream, a trap of wonderful promises. Still, I’ll leave a space for you in my heart, in case you’ll need me, in case you’ll return.

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