doing alot of thinking

February 9, 2010

so my devotion today was Psalm 121.

I lift up my eyes to the hills–
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip–
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.


The Lord will keep you from all harm–
he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

sometimes i randomly open the bible to a page and read from the first word i see. well tonight happened to land on the story of Mordecai from Esther. his life story is one filled with many challenges that he turned into opportunities. basically, God blended both character and circumstances to accomplish great things in Mordecai’s life. this showed me that God uses situations i face daily to weave a pattern of godliness into my character. some lessons that i learned from reading Mordecai’s life story: 1) the opportunities we currently have are more important than the ones i wish i had, 2) i need to focus on the present moment and not get stuck in what happened in the past or what i look forward to in the future, 3) i can trust God to weave together the events of my life for my best, even though i may not be able to see the overall pattern, and 4) the rewards for doing right are not always seen at first, but they are guaranteed by God himself.

i’ve noticed the past week that i am no longer a real positive person. i have been disappointed with things army-wise that have happened in the past month or so and i’ve let it really get to me. i usually dread going to work, i see the negative of every situation, i find myself complaining alot, and really looking forward to 978 days from now when i can officially be out of the army. also, i dont think it helps that another girl im with in the program has a list of complaints daily… i think i just get sucked in and agree whether or not i actually believe them to be true–it really affects my attitude and how i then see the rest of my day. today i was especially having a hard time so i continued to ask God to help me see the positives, and to help me keep a positive attitude throughout my day. luckily i can say that whenever i felt a negative thought come in i quickly asked for Gods strength and help… im one day in of being positive, i hope to keep this streak up 🙂

so… i ask you to pause and seek Gods help to respond appropriately to the situations you find yourself in today and everyday. may you see the blessings with a positive heart rather than with a negative one.


2 Responses to “doing alot of thinking”

  1. Kimm said

    Ashley it is so wonderful to see how you’ve matured, grown and become such a wonderful young lady! I do believe being with positive people makes everything more tolerable even in less than perfect situations. Isn’t time on your hands wonderful – makes you think of all the things you do want to and makes you obsess on the ones you don’t! I love you so much and wish I could help you but that’s not my job – my job is to support you and slap you upside the head whenever I see fit! Love you Ash!

  2. Lorinda said

    hey Ashley,
    good to read your blog today, and that you are realizing (early on) that it can be a habitual negativity and downside emotion that can come from within us.. YOU HAVE THE CONTROL to change the emotion your in and sometimes it takes working through the day before you can shed it or as quick as uttering the prayer of “Jesus bring me peace” while your in it.. either way praying for you that the counting of the days will not be in the front of your mind or the days will be loooooong in the process.
    The army will be a good experience and a great resume builder. Sorry that right now it is sucking the wind out of you. Life can be like that sometimes in any and all situations, jobs, transitions and can depend on who we are working with. Outside of work do not associate with the negative peeps.. shake up your off work routine, and look forward to the next rotation at the hospital..
    We LOVE you sweetie and this will be a short amount of time in life.. and maybe there is still travel in your future..

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